Shteppi Hopeless Romantic. Lyrics

[Intro]
I just want to say before this song starts (Yeah)
I'm very happy in my relationship (Oh, wow, it's this time of night, okay, haha)
These are old feelings (Oh, oh, yeah, okay)
(Oh, you piece of shit, haha) Yeah, whatever
Y'all don't f*cking know me, art is art, I'm just gonna talk
(Oh my God, you aren't real, that's so embarrassing, oh my God, haha)

[Chorus]
Look, you're movin' too fast, I'm movin' too slow
Think I just might crash, I can't let this go
I'm getting too attached to somebody that I know
I'm just a hopeless romantic, thought I— yeah (Thought I told you so)

[Verse 1]
I hope you ask me about this so I can tell you
"Nah, this story made of my thoughts, why would I write if I'm happy?
Why would I write if I'm happy, with everything I got?"
She roll her eyes in life 'cause she know the shit I'm on
I can't help it, ever since a kid, couldn't help it
Fallin' in love with somebody else is cool
But I hate that it's only because I'm selfish
I wanna have my cake and eat it too, but it's dealt with
I'll never act, that's almost worse, I've never been polyamorous
Too jealous for this earth, my man wouldn't be down
But I'm reminded of her whenever I'm sittin' down
And thinkin' about what hurts, f*ck, look
I'd never cheat, only daydream about the verse
When me and her got together, it's only makin' it worse
'Cause I know that realistically, I'm in love with my first
No matter how much I want it, she want it, it wouldn't work, huh
This guilt killin' me 'cause I know she feelin' me
Or maybe she don't, but that's just how my feelings be
Only man I've ever loved, I know that he here for me
But women, women, women tryna take apart my purity
I'm going through a puberty
Estrogen and spiro change the way I look at nudity
Truthfully when I was masc', I just loved the crudity
f*ckin' just like animals, always did it foolishly
Never had these wants and needs, I want her to do for me
We already friends, don't want this to end, I saw her like a week ago
Damn, I didn't intend on feelin' anything, I condemn
They already stemmed into my brain again and again, again and again
I push 'em down, it's probably obvious
All my homies know, it's probably obvious, whatever
I push 'em down and try not to stare at her like a creep
Even if we talk, I'll probably be over her in a week 'cause

[Chorus]
You're movin' too fast, I'm movin' too slow
Think I just might crash, I can't let this go
I'm gettin' too attached to the somebody that I know
I'm just a hopeless romantic, thought I— yeah (Thought I told you so)
You're movin' too fast, I'm movin' too slow (I think I'm good on that for the most part)
Think I just might crash, I can't let this go (I got too many responsibilities, I—)
I'm getting too attached, to the somebody that I know (I could barely drag on my own f*cking relationship already)
I'm just a hopeless romantic, thought I— yeah (Thought I told you so)
(I don't need another person, and I just— I—)

[Bridge]
You know, I'm—
(You're such a loser)
Oh, what these women do to my soul, mm, mm, oh-oh-oh
Whoever brainwashed me into being trans needs to be smited down 'Cause, f*ck, these f*cking hormones are killing me, man
Oh, what these women do to me
f*ck progesterone, man (Yeah, okay, f*ck you, hahaha), okay

[Verse 2]
I told my boyfriend about it 'cause I ain't want shit to escalate
Now I feel like he's second place, I just wanna detonate
He glad I communicated, but told me to never tell him
That I got a crush, now we both afraid we gon' separate
I talked to my homies, Couch told me I was self-destructive
Daki said break it off if I already felt it comin'
Calder said, "f*ck, bro, I wish I could tell you something"
I talked to that girl, but didn't end up explainin' nothin'
We talked it out again, me and my man went and had a lunch
I told him that I'm sorry, how it was, know I'm f*cking up
He said that he understands relationships come with bumps
I told my homies that we back together, they sang and jumped
So sick to my stomach because those feelings still bottled up
And she's still telling me I'm her go-to
Number one to talk to about problems and crushes, now I feel like a bum
'Cause even if I tried, she wouldn't want me, I'm too much baggage (Yeah)
Dropped "i'm such a piece of shit," homies ecstatic
Even she liked the song, she all like, "Stephanie snappin'"
She got no idea what happened, all the pointless dramatics
Now she connected the dots, I got a text, she was mad and
She like, "Steph, that was too specific, I think you got too addicted"
She said, "I see you as a sister, sorry if that sucks to hear
Happened when we were kids, but it veered
And I don't wanna get between you and your man
Out of fear, I gotta block you right here,"
I said, "I'll just disappear"
My man seen me sheddin' tears, he don't know what that's about
We got through problems before, he told me, "Let it all out"
And so I told him, now there's new problems, we'll iron 'em out
I hate I'm feelin' this way just 'cause the pills that I take
I'm sick of seein' her face, I think I drink to escape
Can't even think who'd relate, my friends make sure that I'm straight
Shouldn't have acted so fake, maybe she'd be at my place as a friend still

[Chorus]
You're moving too— (f*ck; It's lonely in Hell), I'm moving too slow
Think I just might crash, I can't let this go (How'd you even get in that situation?)
I'm getting too attached to somebody that I know (You need to control your emotions)
I'm just a hopeless romantic, thought I— yeah (Thought I told you so)
Look, you're moving too fast, I'm moving too slow
Think I just might crash, I can't let this go (I don't give a f*ck if you're twenty, you're old enough to know, you're old enough to know when you're being a bad person)
Look, you're moving too fast, I'm moving too slow (The f*ck are you doing? Look at yourself)
Think I just might crash, I can't let this go (You f*cked everything up, now he's hurt, now she's hurt, now you're hurt, nice)
I'm getting too attached to somebody that I know (When the f*ck are you gonna learn?)
I'm just a hopeless romantic, thought I— yeah (Thought I told you so)