Shpinoza Almost Falling But Still Hanging Lyrics

The ashes on the floor
The smoke already gone
Now you can breathe
And lay your head down
You know I'm trying not to
Consume this goddamn poison
I really wanna make you proud
I really wanna make you proud

I'm trying yes I'm trying but I'm failing all the time
And I know that you hate me yes you hate me
Cause I always let you down
You can't trust me (you can't trust me)
I can't trust myself

I'm sorry honey but I think
That this is our last goodbye
How the hell did I get into this
Situation in my life?
I really wanna make you proud
I really wanna make you proud I'm trying yes I'm trying but I'm failing all the time
And I know that you hate me yes you hate me
Cause I always let you down
You can't trust me (you can't trust me)
I can't trust myself!

In the night I'm awake, I'm awake (I'm awake...)
In my eyes I see pictures of you and I
My body is shaking
I'm sick of lying (I'm sick of lying)
I'm sick of crying (crying)
I'm sick of dying
I'm sick of living on the edge!

I'm trying yes I'm trying
But I'm failing all the time!
I really wanna make you proud!
Make you proud...