Mistah F.a.b. Smile Still Lyrics

[Verse 1: Mistah F.A.B.]
Had a daughter then my mama died on me
Big cuz pulled a [?] I thought you would ride for me
I let him out, still murdered the game
Nothin' new under the sun, ain't a damn thing changed
I'm Dope Era life familiar
Pop pop, fill him up, split 'em down the middle that's a Philly blunt
What could you really want? I gave all everything I had
Lost moms, brother and dad
I still smile, what you rather me mad?
[?] 'cause you left, that I be left out and wouldn't get back
Take a little longer but soon the fog'll clear
I let myself out, so now in the dark it's here
Fight fears with a fist fight
It's the wild wild west, of course I'm bringin' guns to a fist fight
And this might go down in history on this night
It's like more than a this song, this life

[Chorus: Latoiya Williams]
Don't call me bad, I've been hurtin' and sad
A broken heart was all I knew
Always knew I'll make it through
Now I smile, 'cause the pain doesn't hurt
So bad
Through the ups and downs and ends and rounds
I still smile
[Verse 2: Mistah F.A.B.]
You probly, remember me
A black star in the ghetto no [?]
I was sippin' Activis before it was [?]
Child of an activist, my uncle ran with Huey
Ooh-we, who he?
A young black boy from the 'partment stairs
Not [?], nah, just a young black boy with the waves part in his hair
Pardon me dear, I hustled in the park right there
On them park benches, in the dark trenches where your heart drenches
All the blood so it's ice right there
I remember little Nuge lost his life right there
And when Chunk got killed, man I parked right there
Same corner where I stand still, freeze, stand still F.A.B. you changed, nah, I'm Stan still
Just navigate a little better on them playin' fields
Learn to move a little different when your friends killed

[Chorus: Latoiya Williams]
Don't call me bad, I've been hurtin' and sad
A broken heart was all I knew
Always knew I'll make it through
Now I smile, 'cause the pain doesn't hurt
So bad
Through the ups and downs and ends and rounds
I still smile
[Verse 3: Mistah F.A.B.]
Yo I called my grandmother, mother, before I called mother, mom
'Cause mom, she was smokin' on um...
No need to explain, we all been through it
Rocks on the counter, my brother left, they been blew it
Daddy shot heron, messin' up my granny's spoons
Every time he got high, sent me to my granny's room
Broke my granny heart, I can still feel granny's wound
Raised by junkies man, anywho
Hopeless, helpless, damn near homeless
House to house, couch to couch
Mama got clean, please come home Stan
Fifteen boy, I was livin' like a grown man
Teachers can't teach me, mama can' t reach me
Daddy died from HIV, it's no easy
For real it's not easy!
Then my mama leave me
Guess I'm blessed, 'cause I held my own, God see me

[Chorus: Latoiya Williams]
Don't call me bad, I've been hurtin' and sad (hurt and sad)
A broken heart was all I knew
Always knew I'll make it through
Now I smile, 'cause the pain doesn't hurt so bad
So bad
Through the ups and downs and ends and rounds
I still smile
[Outro: Latoiya Williams]
Smile, smile
I smile
Oh I smile
The pain doesn't hurt so bad
Oh I smile
Smile
Smile