Itis Cleared Out And Off Again Lyrics

cleared out & off again, I'm right back where I started and I don't feel too much sadness, though the madness soon will come upon me forcing out evaluation, hopefully a realization as the should'ves and the could'ves feed on my self-deprecation
cleared out & off again, guess I just lost another friend but maybe we can talk again, when all of this is over
cleared out & off again, and though my heart is on the mend my mind has started it's own bend, and thoughts are moving faster toward the fact that it is out of reach to find another that can teach me all that I don't know and yet learn from me what I've mastered
there's nowhere to go when the love & hate collide, it just tangles up inside
cleared out & off again, guess I just lost another friend still I hope we can talk again when all of this is over
cleared out & off again, I'm sick of trying to pretend to be another not offend, and make impressions that I know are not all me but someone else, that someone else wants me to be and all the while I sit & smile while fearing soon it's me they'll see cleared out & off again, guess I just lost another friend I don't think we will talk again, when all of this is over
and there's nowhere to go when the love & hate collide, it just tangles up inside
cleared out & off again, guess I just lost another friend I know we'll never talk again, even when this is over
cleared out & off again, I always knew that it would end now all the memories of once when go in another folder
cleared out & off again, and only me do I defend and so to me insight I lend, on me can only I depend with others, love as might heart lets, cover all of my heart's bets but still I'm wary as I carry on & bury my regrets
and there's nowhere to go when the love & hate collide it just tangles up inside, until a place just has to die
and I don't really know why the black & white turn gray,
and will I ever find my way?