Red Cloud Lyrics

I waste away like I'm in shreds now, underneath of the Red Cloud

Hanging on by a thread now, barely get out of bed

This isn't me to sell my soul out just land milk and honey

My days ain't sunny, slave away to make another man's money

And now it's just this misery, because everybody's sick of me

Because everybody loves their lives, and none of this means shit to me

Don't know how long that I can stay, I want to take this pain away

Amazing that a little ray of sun can get them through their days

I can't pick up my spirits with prayer, p*ssy gets old to a player

Liquor got an array of and writing taking my day up

Lightning outside as I lay up, liquor, lightning and prayers

With all my words on their way up, I'd join them if I could pay up

They can't understand I'm damned and that it drags on a man

That I don't plan to f*ck the ties up that I have but I'm mad

Maybe one day I'll wake up shining in the light that I crave

And I'll be brave another day, but I can never be saved

Because I live under the red cloud devil in my head
I'm just a rebel and the weather always red

f*ck forgiveness for my wickedness, the Red Cloud has witnessed it

Stuck with burdens of my badness, roll with sadness like

Sisyphus

That means liquor over rocks and then I'm chasing a spliff with this

Maybe I can't get a first date, because I just want to get a fifth

Away with your amazing life, pour mine over a maze of ice

So maybe I can see myself through glaze and I won't hate the sight

Annihilate my mind and lie awake at night

I never entered yours but then you're violating mine while I await the light

It's always tainted red like the rain that's dripping on my head Looking for a saint but all I find is sinners in my bed

All the while, the room is spinning, windows tinted crimson red

I've gone to hell I see this by the path of cinders I was led

All the while I bled so the path I took here is tainted red

Painted red like the lips on the last one that gave me head

No one would take me as I was, with this cloud hanging overhead

I'm hoping that my heart will burst from the pain and then paint them red

Because I live under the red cloud devil in my head
I'm just a rebel and the weather always red

So then what if the red would leave me, then people I know don't see me

And when I tell them my name in their language they don't believe me

And without this rebel's crown gotta think about how to be me

So maybe that Cloud relieved me, I need it, it doesn't need me

When I'm sitting here buzzing and thinking and got no loving

Remember that Cloud was here through my worst and them people wasn't

I tell them all of needs and I watch them get up to leave

Now my heart is like Mr. Freeze, all these f*cking people to please

I've been away for a while and I loved them they didn't know though

I think about their smiles now I only see them in photos

Because they left me when I needed them, erase them out my memory

Found peace when I deleted them, rebel soul won't concede to them

I'm bleeding while I breathe in rum, I got my reasons

To drink that drama before the devil knows I'm dead I'm leaving

I lived on Earth he sees it broke my heart so now we're even

I see that Red Cloud in the sky I know it's never leaving

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