Rapture About God, About Me Lyrics

I was forced into confusion
forced into disillusion
lost control of my Christian ways
whether to remain unsaved or to make that decision
God loves me no matter what or so they say
Past is the Past and the Present is now
why wait to take my Christian vows
the reason I do not is not known by me or anyone who does know hasn't told me I
I think more and more and I believe its all mental not physical or spiritual
My faith is not so strong
I believe in the Trinity, Is that wrong?
My final decision is that I believe that God died for my sins and I want to be baptised but I'm afraid If I am baptised it will be for all the wrong reason's
I love God, God loves me
I just can't believe in me