A Letter Of Departure Lyrics

I WANT OUT I WANT OUT

I HATE THE SKIN I WEAR
AND THE BONES THAT BEAR THIS WEIGHT
AND I DON'T THINK IT WILL EVER CHANGE

I WONDER IF I'LL EVER REALLY BE WHOLE AGAIN
AND I'M STRESSING MORE THAN EVER AT THE THOUGHT OF IT

I GIVE UP, I GIVE IN, I FORFEIT
I PUSHED AND I SHOVED
BUT WAS IT WORTH IT? IT WASN'T WORTH SHIT

TIME'S UP

I'M A JOKE, I'M A LIAR, I'M A FRAUD
BLAMING EVERYONE AROUND ME FOR
THE PROBLEMS THAT I'VE CAUSED
I'M AN ADDICT I'M THE REASON I'M ALONE
I'M AN ADDICT I'M THE REASON I'M ALONE
FOUND A METHOD TO AVOID WHAT'S CONFRONTING ME
AND I'D BE LYING IF I SAID IT WASN'T COMFORTING
I'VE FOUND IT HARD TO TELL THE TRUTH
IS THAT ANOTHER f*ckING LINE YOU CAN MISCONSTRUE?

THE DARKEST HOLE IS THE ONE YOU DIG FOR YOURSELF
DEEPER WILL I DIG AND NEVER WILL I SETTLE
NO, NEVER I WILL SETTLE

SO BLEED ME DRY AND TELL ALL MY FRIENDS GOODBYE
I'LL BE AS SELFISH AS YOU THINK I AM
IF IT MEANS IT ENDS TONIGHT

BOTTLE'S DRY AND THE ‘SCRIPTS RUN OUT
I LAY HERE PANICKED, EYES DILATED, VOICES ALL AROUND
I'M NOT COMPLAINING, ‘CAUSE THE WORLD WEIGHS LESS
WHEN I CAN'T STAND
I'M JUST WISHING WHEN THEY FIND MY BODY THAT THEY'D TRY THEIR BEST TO UNDERSTAND

I f*ckING GAG AT THE THOUGHT AND MY STOMACH TURNS
I KNOW I'VE MADE SOME MISTAKES
BUT IS THIS WHAT I DESERVE?
I LAY HERE WRITHING IN THE GUILT OF A CRIME I WON'T COMMIT
AND WALLOW IN THE TORMENT OF THE EVERLASTING MOMENT
FEELS LIKE SPLINTERS IN MY SPINE, HOLLOW IN MY CHEST
I'VE MADE MY ATTEMPTS TO KEEP CLEAN, I'VE EVEN TRIED MY BEST
TAKE ME I'M BREAKING, THERE'S ONLY ONE WAY OUT
BEEN IN DENIAL BUT GOD, I SEE IT CLEARLY NOW

NO RIGHT OR WRONG, WHAT I HAVE OR HAVEN'T DONE
MY MIND PLAYS TRICKS ON ME, I'M RUNNING OUT OF OPTIONS
I CAN'T SAY I'M WORTH HELPING
I BOLDLY CLAIM THE SELF CONTROL SMOTHERED IN MY SUBSTANCE
AND THESE CRAVINGS THEY JUST WON'T LET ME GO
I'VE HAD MY MOMENTS OF CLARITY
AND I'VE REALIZED WHAT'S BEST FOR ME
BUT I IGNORE IT. I IGNORE IT

I HATE THE SKIN I WEAR
AND I KNOW THAT WON'T CHANGE
NO IT WON'T CHANGE
I NEVER WILL CHANGE
I'LL ALWAYS STAY THE SAME
‘CAUSE I WAS MEANT TO BE THIS WAY

SO BLEED ME DRY AND TELL ALL MY FRIENDS GOODBYE
I'LL BE AS SELFISH AS YOU THINK I AM
IF IT MEANS IT ENDS TONIGHT

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