[Intro]
I tried so hard, I played so well
I did a good job, see you in hell
Hell, hell, hell
[Verse 1]
I'm not mad, I'm not even disappointed
At the end of the day, I wanted this
Yeah, I jam in my static grey depression
But I'll bet that I meant what I said
I'm so sick of all this stupid f*cking bullshit
I can't even get it up to wish you dead
I'm so tired of my nuance and compassion
I was pretty, I was nice, I didn't act like that
[Chorus]
'Cause I don't wanna act like that (I don't wanna act like that)
I try not to act like that (I don't wanna act like that)
I can't believe you act like that (I can't believe you act like that)
I can't believe you can still act like that (I can't believe—)
[Post-Chorus]
I tried so hard, I played so well
I'm soaked to the bone in your favorite smell
I know all your favorite things and I'll see you in hell
Hell, hell, hell, hell, hell
[Interlude]
(I tried so hard)
(I played so well)
I did a good job, I'll see you in hell
[Verse 2]
I'm not mad, I'm not even disappointed
You don't have that kind of pull
I feel sick, I feel stupid, I feel ugly
When I'm with you, I just feel so old
I feel so old with you, twenty-five feels old with you
I feel too old for you and I wish you feel it too
[Chorus]
'Cause I don't wanna act like that (Don't wanna act like that)
I try not to act like that (I don't wanna act like that)
I can't afford to act like that (I can't afford to act like that)
Why would you want me if I acted like that? (Why would you want me?)
[Post-Chorus]
I tried so hard, I played so well
I studied hard, I'll see you in hell
Hell, hell
[Bridge]
God, there's gotta be something better
I've gotta get my shit together
I want transcendence, I want the divine
You just want whatever someone gave you last time
Well, don't you wanna be more than this?
Don't you have anything real to give?
Don't you have anything serious to say?
No offense, but you have nothing to offer me
Don't you wanna be better than that?
Don't you wanna find a brand new way to act?
Don't you have anything meaningful to put forth?
I wanna want you, but I can't f*ck around anymore
[Chorus]
'Cause I don't wanna act like that
I don't wanna feel like that
I can't afford to act like that
When I get out, I'm never coming back
[Outro]
Don't wanna act like that
I never wanna feel like that
I can't afford to act like that
And why would you want a girl who acts like that? (Want you like that)