NOW I KNOW
© Electric Babylon Music Author: M.M.
 
I was busy trying to break the code of the silence, my peaceful mind 
had no eye for subtle violence, somewhere between innocence and 
ignorance I walked across the minefield, I live by fortune so you see 
my fate was sealed. 
Now I know what it’s like to feel desperate, and not to want to turn the 
other cheek, now I know what it’s like to really take a fall, and I know 
what it’s like to be strong and feel so weak. 
If this is a blessing in disguise it sure is a good disguise, but I still 
know where the truth is even chin deep in these lies, but right now I 
don’t feel like David I feel like Goliath, I feel full of hate and rage and I 
cant deny it. 
Now I know what it’s like to feel like a loser, and I know what it’s like 
just to want to cry, now I know what it’s like not to rise above self pity, 
and I know what it’s like to feel all this without understanding why. 
It seems so trivial like a pebble held up to the sun, what felt light on 
the scales of justice to me feels like a ton, I’m ashamed that it got to 
me but I’ve got enough pride to admit that it did, but honor is just a 
snack to some f*** like you whose soul is up for bid. 
Now I know what it feels like to lust for revenge, and I know what it 
feels like to poke my scar until it’s sore, now I know what it feels like 
to try and learn from an accident, and I know what it feels like to pick 
myself up off the floor. 
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