Meek Mill Dreams & Nightmares Lyrics

[Verse : Meek Mill]
It really hurt me when they killed shawty ,
I was locked up in ma cell ,
when I had to read about it and ,
when they killed dd ,
left from out of Philly ,
we was young and getting money man we used to run the city ,
we was rockin all the shows and f*cking all them hoes and when they killed barrel ,
we really had to see him froze ,
on that ground downtown ,
I could hear the sounds sound ,
once you walk up to that casket see a 34 down ! ,
I drop tears for my niggas that ain't here ,
and still think about you even though that every year ,
cause the niggas that I grew up with is all dead ,
all the pain and the all the stress and I can't have a ball here , cause when my mom wanted to die she looked talk in his eyes ,
saw a breath coming when she seen it she just cried ,
probably part of the reason we drinking wheatin high ,
when I find that nigga that killed my daddy ,
gon walk around , hope you hear me ima kill you nigga ,
dont let me hear you ill kill you nigga ! ,
hold up , You ripped my family apart and made my momma cry,
cause I was only a toddler, cause I was traumatized ,
you made me a man of the house and it was grindin' time.. ,
So Imá let this flame hit you, just to let this pain hit you..,
and for all them claudy days,
I'mma let this rain hit you!Explain