This Conditioned Lie Lyrics

Another night I'm drinking.
I search my soul again.
But I'm afraid I'm thinking there might not be any left.

I pull the pins and needles from underneath my skin.
This silence taunts my ego
Is it wrong if I forget?

How it tasted
on my lips
and how I wasted
so much time on this lie.

'Cause I don't want to be broken
and I don't want to feel numb inside.
Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie.
We've had our eyes shut open
But now we've got to just say goodbye.
Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie.

I'm facing down these demons
and I can't let them in.
They feed on my depression. Will I soon be one of them?
But even if they take me,
it wouldn't be as bad
as when you left me shaking.
Now I fear I can't forget

how you tasted
on my lips.
and how I wasted
so much time on this lie.

'Cause I don't want to be broken
and I don't want to feel numb inside.
Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie.
We've had our eyes shut open
But now we've got to just say goodbye.
Still wondering how we spent so much time on this lie.

Two liars stuck
in a star-crossed gaze,
an empty shame.
Tragic,
we would have rather died to save our faces.

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