Life Lessons I Know What I'm Not Lyrics

I've been trapped
Under who I said I'd be for so long
I got lost in always trying to be what I'm not
I'm afraid
That you want all that I'm not
And you thought I'd change like I did before
But I'm not the type to change anymore

Only I could pick the flower
Then damn it if it doesn't die
Uproot the thing that I forgot to appreciate alive
'cause I can't hold it together
When your tears start to melt
Their way through cracks in your makeup
I know I'm not what you wanted And if I am then you don't act like you know that
And I know that
So we break down
You don't deserve to have to worry about
If I'll be there when you need me
But you'll still hear me out

Don't you dare think I don't know how bad this hurts
And don't you dare think I don't know who hurt who worse
Don't trade your guard up for me ever getting through to your head
Don't trade for problems and someone you'll wish you hated instead

You'd be better off