Holding Absence Nomoreroses Lyrics

[Intro]
If God is just and fair
Why wasn't my heart spared?

[Verse 1]
I've waited all my life
To see this holy light
You're smothering my eyes
I wanna see it, I wanna feel it
The harder that I pray
The more you make it rain
I'm soaked in all this pain
Forgive me for drowning
Deafen me with your voice
You stuffed me with this void

[Chorus]
And if I've done you wrong by not enduring this pain
Well, where were you and all your eternal holy grace?

[Verse 2]
I've been sitting on your front porch, knocking on your front door
Knocking till my knuckles go red raw I've been sitting in the ether, looking for beliеf
I'm lost like a whistle in the wind
I'vе been kneeling on my bare bones
Speaking with my eyes closed
Keeping both my knuckles pressing my nose
But nothing that I ever do
Will close this hole inside of me
If you are just and fair
Why won't you meet me there?
[Chorus]
And if I've done you wrong by not enduring this pain
Well, where were you and all your eternal holy grace?

[Outro]
How many tear-stained sonatas must I sing for you to see?
I never believed in you because you never believed in me