Esham Magical Thinking Lyrics

[Chorus: Daneil Jordan]
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I just need to find a place to hide
'Cause all my friends are dead, but somehow I'm still alive
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I've lived inside my head

[Verse 1: Daniel Jordan]
I can't sit at a restaurant and have a bite
Too many people talking makes me lose my appetite
I don't like to leave home. I got anxiety
I can't exist in this sick society
Too many people are perverted, and so am I
After I sleep with a girl, I curl up and hide
When somebody locks eyes with me, I look down
And act like I don't even see him comin' around
I get needy [?] grab my phone
And pretend to text anybody, I'd rather be a bum
I've been talking to this girl for six months
But I ain't even heard her real voice once
The world's over, so find a place to hide
If you wanna survive, don't ever go outside
Don't watch the news, 'cause everybody is dead
Just lock your doors and live inside your head

[Chorus: Daneil Jordan]
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I just need to find a place to hide
'Cause all my friends are dead, but somehow I'm still alive
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I've lived inside my head

[Verse 2: Esham]
I got a whole world inside my head, and I'm the ruler
Sick shit goin' on in my medulla
I'm frozen like Freon fresh out the cooler
No class, but I still might school ya Don't let if fool ya, macho man, ooh ya
Killed a police, then I flee and allude ya
Stood on many stages, never got booed, yeah
Went up in the church [?]
Caught the Holy Ghost, f*ck a [?] and the goat
Let the pig squeal at the barbecue roast
I couldn't spell his name on the suicide note
So I just said "f*ck it" and that's all she wrote
Then my head got to spinnin', the devil got to grinnin'
I was losin' that life, but I thought I was winnin'
I was prayin' on Sunday, every other day sinnin'
Until the fbi came and kicked my shit in
The devil got a hold on me, somebody told on me
I was a hot boy, but then they went cold on me
It could have been anybody who [?] on me
'Cause when [?] you're sellin' your soul, you sure gon' see
Ain't no life insurance in this game of policies
They shoot you down in the street with no apologies
Rap poison for the rodents that infest the cheese
Rap crooks wanna look the secret recipes
It ain't no honor among thieves out in the streets
'Cause everybody is hungry and wanna eat
I know you see what I'm sayin', but you don't wanna speak
Only the strong survive, but the earth inherited by the lead

[Chorus: Esham]
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I just need to find a place to hide
'Cause all my friends are dead, but somehow I'm still alive
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I've lived inside my head, and I don't go outside
I live inside my head, and I don't go outside