Eldest 11 Bleach Lyrics

It's a way of recovering what I lost...(in the Vicodin)
When I began, I tried to make it right, but it went wrong
And then it's hard to unravel the knots in your heart
It's an escape, a secret love when God won't listen anymore, all i think:

GOD, I've done too much damage to my body
It's HARD, when you feel like your world was made to cave
(For way too long, I kept holding on)
But now I'm tired of everything....

I try to ignore the fact that I can't breathe anymore
Back then, we had a good run when I was sober, but it's all gone
(and if you can't understand)
I was good at everything....
Dear love, they took the best part of me
In my life...I've felt so distracted
Afraid to start again
Alcohol burns like a bombshell
I Died, put the morphine on the medicine spinner... Oh MY GOD, I've done too much damage to my body
It's HARD, when you feel like your world was made to cave
(For way too long, I kept holding on)
But now I'm tired of everything....
(When the finger slip, you can forget me holding on)
Now I'm tired of everything....
I try to ignore the fact that I can't breathe anymore
Back then, we had a good run when I was sober, but it's all gone
(and if you can't understand)
I was good at everything....
Dear love, they took the best part of me
(I Kept trying but I'm tired of everything)

Coming through the hallway bleeding out my nose...
Nobody ever understands anymore...
I couldn't change, you couldn't take time....but I don't care!
You motherf*ckers never cared!