Cumshots And The Sun Pissed Red Lyrics

I've been good for weeks now
I tell you I'm in control
I've got my shit together
I know when I should fold

It's just tonight
Nothing at all to fear
You'll be with me all the time
It's not like I could run off anywhere

I go right home
But I won't be alone
A thousand in cash
And a mobile phone
Don't know how to stop
I sure can't tell you when
I am lost in that whirlpool again
Don't think I'll ever stop
Can't see a reason why
Only dying makes me feel alive

It's that constant burden
Of trying to make it bearable
When my life is so f*cked up
And so far from repairable

That makes me look
For that final nail for my coffin
It's way past midnight
But I find hundres in the nothing (The same lies I've told everybody including myself a hundred times)

I go right home
But I won't be alone
A thousand in cash
And a mobile phone
Don't know how I'll stop
I sure can't tell you when
I am lost in that whirlpool again
Don't think I'll ever stop
Can't see a reason why
Only dying makes me feel alive

Wide awake, I never went to bed
Naked by the window and the sun is pissing red
My hands look rusty, guess my nose has bled
Then I remember what my father said

Don't know how I'll stop
I sure can't tell you when
I am lost in that whirlpool again
Don't think 'll ever stop
Can't see a reason why
Only dying makes me feel alive