Chris Patrick The Calm Lyrics

[Intro]
And as I mention a powerful coastal storm is bringing heavy rain and strong wins across portions of the northeast today
[?] pummled parts on New York, Pennsylvania, New Jersey and-
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[Verse]
I got to be honest with me for the sake of development
Most of people I lost
I done lost to the cost of embracing my selfishness
Convinced that i'm chosen
Excuse my behavior
Been telling the people I [?]
[?] say I was f*cked to the point even therapy couldn't even save mе
I know i'm a narccisist rocking a cloth of a selfish soul
Truth is I wanna be greatеr but playing a part is strong as I sell my soul
Is there much space to comfortabe?
The gram make me look straight
In reality, 'way that I live ain't as wonderful
Ain't enough drugs in this world to take pain out my mind when my consciousness is cracking
Ain't enough sluts in the world validating i'm him cause my confidence lacking
Ain't enough funds in the world making up for the times when a promise ain't happen
For them times that I gave out my word and reverse on the sentence that left my tongue
Ashamed of myself cause I'm pressed to run
I hate how I act like [?] most of my problems whenever the weight of the pressure comes
Not stabalized
InitaI mission was for changing lives
Initial mission was for [?]
Live ourselves amazing lives
Choose myself over 80 times and I won't forget it Instead of linking folk who needed me
Chose my own survival and I don't regret it
But I miss niggas
Still thinking about my reckless days
Still think about them now
Crazy folk used to text away
Lot of days I want to patch it up
I don't even got the strength to say, "My bad I was wildin'"
Pride got me feeling childish
I know that I need grow up in this bitch but I know that I can't change the past
I know I need time just to heal from the wounds I've inflicted from chaisng this cash
I thought meeting Cole was the moment that'd make this shit worth it for all of the bag
But I met him and felt f*cking empty and realized that happiness ain't really laugh
I'm starting to question what really matters
Telling myself every sacrifice made was a step toward the shit that we're really after
Look around
Who the f*ck left here to elevate?
Outside my CXR niggas I don't got a day one left with me to celebrate
Gang activity been due to my ego
I watch as the gang had to seperate
I'm learning to cope
Learning my flaws
Learning forgiveness for times I was lost
Learning to give up control by desire and placing my faith in the hands of above
Learning to cherish the people I have
I'm learning to let go the people that's gone
Learning the only way niggas prepare for the storm is confessing their sins through the calm
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