Matilda A Year Of My Life Lyrics

I won't let you close enough
To tare down the walls that I've built up
‘cause I can't take another year like this
I won't let you ruin me
By making me feel like you want to be
Close to me when
 you love someone else

I've spent a year of my life
Waiting for you to pull out the knife
I've spent a year of my life
Loving you
You've made a fool out of me
Pretending nothing mattered 
and I'm sick
 of it

I've let every moment with you Be a moment of hope, and I wish you knew
That I would've taken a bullet for you
A part of me wanna to let you go
But my head and my heart have a civil war
And I don't know
I don't know what to do

I've spent a year of my life
Waiting for you to pull out the knife
I've spent a year of my life
Loving you
You've made a fool out of me
Pretending nothing mattered 
and I'm sick
 of it