Ethel Cain Waco, Texas Lyrics

[Verse 1]
My honey's heart is blue and a second offbeat
Always tugging at me like he's running out of daylight
Yeah, my baby acts cool but they all know something ain't right, ain't right
Only acting this cool when he's walking with me
1998 forever and a day
I keep the pictures hanging where the world can see 'em
I hope I die today
Save me from another late night of red eyes
But then the morning comes
You were there looking for me but I
I was gone, turned my back for a moment and
You had fallen apart
[Verse 2]
They've been promising the lights as we beg for our lives
Selling pages of the times we've been waiting on
Now the weight's too much and I can't hold you anymore
How much of a cruel year can you call my fault?
Not even the memories are immortal
Terrified on this side of a conversation
A conversation we'll never come back from
I'll never live it down if I never get around it
'Cause goddammit, I did it to myself in hindsight
I liked him 'cause his rule was, "Do whatever you like," and I tried, alright
Now I'll wear these scars for life
I loved you when it hurt inside to
But in the low light
You know I'd do anything for you

[Chorus]
You know I'd do anything for you
You know it's true, 'cause I've said it to you
Held in my arms, I swore I'd be good to you Then sat and watched as you walked away from me

[Verse 3]
Yeah, you've changed
But did I ever know you
Or did I hold you
Facing away from me
The air in your room never moves
Live and die by TV no one's watching
Do you hate me?
When this is over
Maybe then we'll get some sleep
I've been picking names for our children
You've been wondering how you're gonna feed them
Love is not enough in this world
But I still believe in Nebraska dreaming
Cause I'd rather die
Than be anything but your girl
[Verse 4]
I never meant to hurt you
But somehow, I knew I would
Will it be like this forever?
I'd reach into your body
And fix you if I could
Will I feel like this forever?
Are you angry?
Do you hate me?
Darling, time may forgive me
But I won't

[Chorus]
You know I'd do anything for you
You know it's true, 'cause I've said it to you
Held in my arms, I swore I'd be good to you
Then sat and watched
As you walked away from me
So I bled til I cried, til I felt I might die
To be known the way you should
Is to put yourself through hell
Still I waited and tried, til it killed me
Cause you're right
I can wait if I want
But it'll never be good enough like I
Want to believe it is

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