Bukshot Deserted Lyrics

[Verse 1: Bukshot]
Look around, my head so heavy, death lurkin, I'm not ready
Ain't workin', stomach's empty, pain hurtin', machete
Wanna die right now but I can't let my kids down and be some failure
Got the world on my shoulders, found out God's mad at me, let me tell ya
He was talkin', wasn't listenin', do that often, now there's tension
f*cked up but that's on me, dropped the bail and failed the mission
Now I'm in this forest stranded, lost my compass, feelin' panic
These demons closin' in, tryin' to get away as I'm turnin' manic
My dreams, what happened? Nothin' but nightmares, voices laughin'
It seems I've been abandonеd, memories stolen by thеse phantoms
Lookin' back now, was it worth it? Bad choices, now my verdict
Can't ignore it 'cause I heard it, lost it all, now I'm deserted
[Chorus: Str8jaket]
When the day ends and I close my eyes I keep prayin' for a beautiful life
So tell me why have I been forsaken? (Why have I been forsaken?)
Lord knows I've tried so I question why I'm deserted, deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted)
Lord I know I don't deserve it (don't deserve it), deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted)
Everyday I try to live a beautiful life so it's worth it

[Verse 2: Rittz]
Back on tour but the doctor said I need to get rest
We just left Atlanta, headed to the Midwest
I wish I could smoke some weed but I can't leave the state
Until I sign these legal papers and I take a piss test
I'm prepared for the consequences coming for me
From my fight with the wife that has haunted me since 2020
She move ahead and leave her love behind me
Besides the only time she call me up is when she want some money from me
On this air mattress hopin' that it don't deflate while she is in my house on the reclining couch
The California King while I'm just cryin' out starin' at the separation paper that she found
Tryna smile while I'm rappin' to the crowd like I'm cool but the truth is
I'm reclusive and suicidal, I don't ever leave the house, when I do
My excuse is to get another bottle tryna find an Uber driver (Uber driver)
Feelin' stupid, I'm a problem solver, I don't know how to fix the situation I created for us Payin' for the crime that I committed, my addiction to the alcohol was small at first and then became enormous
This ain't the same performance, wishing God would point his finger, I could figure the direction I should walk (I should walk)
The only women that I love deserted me, I'm like a human body buried in the desert, that's what I got (Yeah!)
[Chorus: Str8jaket]
When the day ends and I close my eyes I keep prayin' for a beautiful life
So tell me why have I been forsaken? (Why have I been forsaken?)
Lord knows I've tried so I question why I'm deserted, deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted)
Lord I know I don't deserve it (don't deserve it), deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted)
Everyday I try to live a beautiful life so it's worth it

[Verse 3: Bukshot]
I feel my kids in my visions but I can't touch 'em, see 'em, hug 'em
There's something between us, I reach out but I feel nothin'
There's no time left to do what I must, to turn back, right my wrongs
Am I dead yet? Can't feel shit as I sit here to write these songs
I sit back, think about the days when everything was cool, can't forget that
When I said I loved you I meant that, every single word, I'll die tryin' to get back
I'm lost right now and I'm on the ropes, swingin', fightin'
Blind from uppercuts and punches, close to dying, I'm so frightened
Has it come to this? My friend, my darkness, my abyss
But it seems I reach every time and wish tryin' to hold onto memories I'm remiss
The sun is gone, ain't risin', no moon, the stars ain't shinin'
Just blackness, deserted, the thought of life declinin'

[Chorus: Str8jaket]
When the day ends and I close my eyes I keep prayin' for a beautiful life
So tell me why have I been possessed? (Why have I been possessed?)
Lord knows I've tried so I question why I'm deserted, deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted)
Lord I know I don't deserve it (don't deserve it), deserted (deserted), feel deserted (feel deserted)
Everyday I try to live a beautiful life so it's worth it