Avail High Lonesome Lyrics

i've tried to think this out ten times now but i'ts gone the temptation to reason ruck reason and f*ck all the words you've written they make no sense not in retrospect please tell me why did you walk back in today? but before you see me it's been over a year now and i'm hardly sound and i'm over pretending i'm no longer shaking or walking the ground. i'll try to work this out but i don't know how it goes on this frustration lacks meaning f*ck meaning and f*ck all the pain it brings this makes no sense i don't buy what you send please tell me why did you walk back in today? i've tried to run but i stay here, and i don't know why i would wait there's still a reason and it burns down in ashes where i lay why did you walk back in today? i'm drowning