Everafter Six Feet Away Lyrics

wash my hands and i hope to die 
those nights of endless tears 
your apathy and self control 
were the answer to my fears 
that i cant do this anymore 
i cant go on 
i cant keep hating myself and i cant do this anymore 
eyes sewn shut and my heart has grown cold 
my hands are painted red razor sharp words to my wrist 
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never thought before you said 
i heard you cried for a while 
you thought i was okay 
but all your thoughts and your sorry words 
i cant hear six feet away 
i cant wake up hating myself and wishing that i wasnt born