Tabitha's Secret Dear Joan Lyrics

Dear Joan
I've almost forgotten
The pane in the window
Blue dress in the doorway
Dear Joan
Help me remember
The face I forget
And the traps that I've sprung
I guess I grow tired it's just what's expected of me
To tear your heart from the inside to the outside
You know I was wired, I just couldn't help it
the hundred, thousand times that I hurt you
Dear Joan I wanted to say
that I'm sorry for the screaming last night
and the nights before
Well I wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan
Dear Joan
Your face has a brightness
That I've never seen
in the years that I've known you
Dear Joan
I pick up the pieces
But some scattered too far
You see they flew when I kicked them
I know you believed when I said it was over
You stood by me patiently waiting and rolling
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So deeply in love with every face that I've shown
Dear Joan I wanted to say
that I'm sorry for the screaming last night
and the nights before
Well I wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Once I forgive, twice I'm a fool
Three times I've wrapped my hands around your neck
While you're sleeping, you're quietly sleeping
Sleeping and dreaming
Dear Joan
Don't walk out that doorway
because if you did - I believe
I could honestly kill you
Dear Joan I wanted to say
that I'm sorry for the screaming last night
and the nights before
Well I wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan I wanted to say
that I'm sorry for the screaming last night
and the nights before
Well I wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan