You know I would take the school bus sometimes to a different neighborhood and get dropped off and then walk
'Cause I didn't want people to see where I lived
I started riding my bike to school
I'd ride my bike maybe five miles to school
And I was in middle school
You know and that's fifth grade and maybe that's not wild but
At the time it didn't feel wild to me
You know it felt like This is what I need to do to feel -- okay
So, you know, my peers won't judge me or
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So, I just felt
You know I just felt less than
I didn't know anything about myself, how to feel good about myself
So, the only way I knew to feel good
Was if I could make you like mе
I could make you like me
I needеd you
To like me
I only decided how I felt based on how you felt about me
And it went from moment to moment
And they may not even have been judging me
I just felt, I don't know, I guess I just felt judged I felt less than, I felt
I don't know, sometimes I didn't really feel anything
But I knew that if I showed up at school on the poor bus then people knew I was poor
And I already felt bad enough Because nobody was telling me in my world like one of my parents that I can feel okay about myself
There wasn't a father around, and this isn't a sob story I'm trying to tell you guys I'm trying to tell you how I ended up
Getting into Alcoholics anonymous for me I'm not saying you need to do this
I don't know your life, I don't know your world
If you're doing an eight ball right now and listening to this bruh, and eatin' - you know and eatin' somebody's butt you met or whatever
Do your thing
Do your thing
I'm not judging you at all, man
I wish I was right there with you, one day, I may be back
But for now, this is where I am
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So, I just felt
You know I just felt less than
I didn't know anything about myself, how to feel good about myself
So, the only way I knew to feel good
Was if I could make you like me
I could make you like me
I needed you
To like me
I only decided how I felt based on how you felt about me
And it went from moment to moment
And so, I was a storyteller because I wanted my life to be different to other people
And so, I told stories
And also, I like to make other people laugh
Because I knew that if they were laughing
Then they were okay with me
They couldn't be hating me and laughing at the same time