Goldfinger Disorder Lyrics

Disorder lyrics
My little story's
growing way too long
i've had to suffer
enough to write this song
and if i get the chance
i'll tell you how it feels
cause in this sick old head
the pain is way to real
so i fall down
i don't know
if i can make it up this time

I know i want to but it gets
harder every time
and if it's easier
to give up everything
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i'd give it all to you
to relieve half this pain

cause it's been hard
yeah it's been hard

i sit there at the bar
i wonder what i've done
should i just fuck it all

or should i
go back home
cause if i take that drink
i might as well just die
and if i kill myself
i'd be giving up my try