Far Really Here Lyrics

I noticed it when I walked out
My small white world
was closing down
I wondered, I would always wonder
Why I am always sober
and everyone is loaded
and it gets old
Well i bow out now
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I refuse
So what if I waver, I fall
I'll always
I will always notice
Speak up when I'm called on
Everyone gets older
Oh well
I'm not really here